Focus on the Positive...but Develop from the Negatives

Pain is not a choice.  It is not a decision.  You don't chose to be in pain, and you certainly don't want to be. But you can't just decide to not have pain today.  If it were that easy, why would anybody ever stay in pain? The world can't possibly have that many sufferers of Munchausen syndrome or hypochondria in it.

When you stop playing Evil's game and make a move Evil never expected from you, Evil will stumble, for Evil does inhumane actions in hopes you will reciprocate, thus generating more Evil. The moment you break the cycle, you begin to break Evil down. Evil cannot spread if you refuse to be Its host.  Therefore, don't let Evil trick you into helping It thrive, for Evil is a mastery at trickery. Keep in mind that you are playing with Evil's rule book, and sometimes just ignoring Evil is not enough. Your silence is actually playing into Evil's deranged game; you are unsuspectingly falling into Its trap.  Thus, always be nice and polite to others, treating everyone you meet as though they are your closest kin, because Evil hates that. Such kindness is what actually prohibits Evil's growth. Think of Evil as a germ.  If you come in contact with pure Evil and don't wash your hands of It, you may spread the germ to another and then another, who both may a

I am waiting.   Still waiting to be discovered. By whom I do not know.   For what,   well, it's flexible.   But why,   I am not sure,   nor do I recognize what I'm hoping to receive.   A dream job?   Money?    Personal recognition? I am reminded of a social science class in high school where I was the only one to rank personal recognition a top value over the typical love, family, money, etc. As the teacher repeated it loud,   stating my name followed by "for personal recognition,"   I remember thinking, Was that odd?   That was the first time I recall realizing the true desire I had to be famous or well-known,   beyond the kid dreams to be an actress or singer – I just realized now,   I did always fantasize about careers that would make me famous,   so maybe that is my core value, what drives me deep down. I write a blog no one reads, to voice my thoughts and put them out there in case someone should stumble upon them.   But yes, when I started it over 5 yea

I started a 5 year sentence journal the day after I was married.  Since it is now over a year,  when I write this year's entry,  last year's is above to read. I was excited for a year to come to read a non-digital memories,  "last year on this date" type thing. I thought I had told myself to keep it positive,  stuff I would want to remember,   but evidently I made that decision a few months in. It isn't venting or complaining, just describing it as it was, the trouble we had with some guests and issues with our photographer. But, now I don't want to read those entries,  I don't want to be reminded of small details I blocked out. I have memories a few months in of wanting to write how it was a blah day or I felt down,  because that is what was on my mind that day, so I wanted to complain.  But that I did refrain from,  deciding it wasn't a journal to vent,  but this was a memory book of the mundane I will enjoy recalling. I wish I had realized that

If tracking my time to learn how I spend my time in order to better manage my time takes a lot of time,  is it just an ironic waste of my time?  Could I have better used that time for taking the time to do the timely things I am trying to make the time for in my schedule? (But then I wouldn't have had time to color this chart!)

I wrote this yesterday immediately after the first reports of a potential gunman at Northwestern university.: It wouldn't surprise me if whatever this shooting incident is going on at Northwestern was inspired by these "peaceful walkouts" this morning. Sometimes I think the increasing cases of mass shootings are because of all the media coverage - available on virtually every TV and radio station, news site, and social media platform - inspiring troubled imdividuals to plan their own shooting. All the specific details the media now reports gives ideas to these angry, unempathetic souls, no doubt also motivating some of them by the 15 minutes of fame the news coverage will ultimately give them (something I wonder about since most mass shootings end with the gunman taking their life, leaving him not on this earth to reap in the trauma they caused). Whatever your stand on these issues, incidents like these do give us all the same important message, and no, it is not to be